The Beauty Called Life....

Aahistaa (2)

So here the story begins of changing the track of my life, from being a slow creature to a confident lady.

I still remember the first time I stepped out in a new world, first time out of the so called comfort zone, first time all alone without my Maa and Pappa... The day was when I got admitted in a school "Kidszone" I was a bit nervous this time more slow may be because of the fear of facing new people out-there, A bit of excitement was also coming as a flash of light on my face, I was delighted as I have been given with a brand new school bag my first school bag which I still have with me somewhere lying in my closet. new colorful books, a new red colored water-bottle, and a yellow colored tiffin, I remember it took hours for my Maa to select all these items for me, It seemed that she was much more excited than me, She had so much dreams in her eyes for her lil princess... yes I was always her princess no matter what the world used to comment about her slow daughter she loved me the most even after knowing that the people were actually right.... but I was special for her, her special child. When I was first time taking steps towards the Gate of a new world which was waiting for me, my Maa clutched my hand too hard as if she was fearful for me (she was more nervous then me I guess), then she sat on her knees giving me a kiss on my forehead a few tears were twinkling from her eyes but she managed very well enough to keep them in the shadows of her eyes may be she din't want to let me know about them. She said I Love you my child.. now its time for you to learn the things by your own but always remember I am always with you by your side, no matter how much good or bad the things goes.... at that moment I was not able to grasp and understand the meaning of her words but now I can very well feel what those lines meant, why my mother was so fearful.. she knew every thing which was going to come in her daughter's way.... Then I glanced to my Pappa who was peeping outside the window of his car, I don't know why he seemed a bit angry, he just glared at us with a sigh of disgust... Pappa was not happy... Why I still don't know or may be I know but I am still unable to accept that silent anger somewhere in my heart... Sometimes not accepting the truth is also good for us it helps you feel not happy but at-least peaceful...
The new world welcomed me like an unwanted guest coming at your doorstep on a wrong time... It was strange for me though but I used to thought that these are all the rules of the world, this is how the world is outside the Home may be... Here starts the real journey of Aahistaa a slow girl unable to grab the fast moving pace of the life and the world....

Living it in my own Way...

Here I am starting with My very first Blog ever... All the Best to me... :)

Aahistaa...

As a girl I was always been an Emotional candid bird triffling between all the ups and downs of Life. Trieing to manage the splendid heart with the mellow mind to improve the court of life, to be the one who can make everyone smile, that is ME a true part of ME.... Oops I have not introduced myself, I was so engrossed in explaining myself...I m Aahista... Aahista Mathur, I know my name sounds too SLOW like me at times.... Well this name came into existence for me when my parents started observing me that I was very slow in all the works I used to do unlike children of my same age group... But whatever may be the reason behind my name I love it so much...
Sometimes Life comes with some notes which when framed into a melody makes everyone heart feel something good. but sometimes when the same notes are not arranged in a proper way they become mere cranky sound...For my parents I was always a note a beautiful one, may be because my veins were drenched with their love as I was their own self their part or may be they made me turned into a Beautiful melody for themselves... Whatever it may be I was always an apple of their eye... But this was not the same with the world outside my Home... For people around I was only a Cranky sound, A slow, clumsy girl... People say I am not normal I have some malfunctioning in my mind but my Maa says that I have a Pure and Beautiful mind... Sometimes I think people are right but deep inside I know my Maa is always right she knows everything... Coming ahead of everyone was always my Dream I wanted to show the world that Aahista is not slow shes just like them, she can also have a chirpy gang of girls, she can also dance in the music with the college friends, she can also bunk classes for a boyfriend... But this Dream never came true may be there were some lack of efforts from my side or may be God wanted something different for me...  Right from my childhood from the days when i stepped first time in school to the college I was always the neglected one... And now I am a singlet, confident All Ready to Face Girl... It seems life has took a turn in a new direction... Sometimes I think Is this Actually me the slow Aahista, My Maa's special child...